I feel completely invisible. Just me in my own little world. alone.


there are pros and cons to this.

also, when I reach out people are receptive.

But still....

I want the right people to be after me in the right way.

My standards are impossible of course.

I am mad at my boss.  that is all.

i can't decide what to do, therefore i do nothing.

yikes.

I can't decide whether going to the 2 hour yoga practice will be too strenuous since I'm a bit out of shape.

yikes.

getting older is tough!

so i guess i will plan on going and will leave early or chill out in child's pose if it is too strenuous. I'll tell the teacher beforehand about my deal and I'm sure he'll be supportive.

okay: easy sunday morning plan:

8:15-8:45: computer time
8:45-9:15: breakfast time
9:15-10: shower and get ready

after yoga i'll eat lunch and go to the gym and walk on the treadmill for an hour.

you can't help someone who doesn't want your help

you can't love someone who doesn't want your love on your terms.

i'm so frustrated with our relationship.

what is the point of this.

I guess I need to take some time to sort things out.

It's okay to not have a plan. KW doesn't know what he's talking about.

It's also okay to have plans in my head that I don't tell anyone.

It's okay to think that my life will be great when I'm 50 and that's what I am preparing for.

weekend wishlist

-feed myself
-clean out fridge

So I realize how inconsistent my mood / thinking is.

I think this is a new development for me. I think I'm changing. I think this is good.