I just texted my boyfriend twenty minutes ago and asked him if he wanted to go running today and then eat something. I haven't heard back from him and I'm feeling myself getting very impatient.
-I used to think I was a patient person-
-I'm not sure if I'm very impatient with him exclusively-
The "impatience" is very real in my heart, it makes me worried that he wants to avoid me. I don't want to call because that would seem like nagging. Furthermore, I'm ashamed that I don't have the type of relationship where I'm allowed to call my boyfriend. To some degree I'm ashamed of my relationship.
I'm reading a book about shame and becoming obsessed with the topic.
(to be continued)
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