i can't decide what to do, therefore i do nothing.

yikes.

I can't decide whether going to the 2 hour yoga practice will be too strenuous since I'm a bit out of shape.

yikes.

getting older is tough!

so i guess i will plan on going and will leave early or chill out in child's pose if it is too strenuous. I'll tell the teacher beforehand about my deal and I'm sure he'll be supportive.

okay: easy sunday morning plan:

8:15-8:45: computer time
8:45-9:15: breakfast time
9:15-10: shower and get ready

after yoga i'll eat lunch and go to the gym and walk on the treadmill for an hour.

you can't help someone who doesn't want your help

you can't love someone who doesn't want your love on your terms.

i'm so frustrated with our relationship.

what is the point of this.

I guess I need to take some time to sort things out.

It's okay to not have a plan. KW doesn't know what he's talking about.

It's also okay to have plans in my head that I don't tell anyone.

It's okay to think that my life will be great when I'm 50 and that's what I am preparing for.

weekend wishlist

-feed myself
-clean out fridge

So I realize how inconsistent my mood / thinking is.

I think this is a new development for me. I think I'm changing. I think this is good.

I feel different today.

I guess I took a yoga class last night when I had taken a month long break from yoga - so that makes a difference.

I feel good, but a little lonely. I disabled my okc account because nobody is messaging me.

I haven't talked to David in like 9 days. I was thinking about sending him a message after he takes his big exam, but I don't know. His birthday is also coming up. I still don't know.

My relationship with the new guy I'm dating is a bit weird. I'm not sure if I want to continue with it or just be single. I think I still want to get involved with meet ups and connect with old friends. Maybe take a class. Like Spanish or Japanese.

Yesterday I ate granola bars for dinner and now I feel a bit disgusting. My apartment is still a disaster....

Sort of in a rut apartment-wise.