Sunday, October 23, 2011

Dear David

I love you. And I'm sad that it didn't work out between us. And I'm dating someone new because I thought it would take the edge off. And it is a bit. But there is still some edge. Maybe I should start drinking or smoking weed. Or taking anti-depressants.

I'm really embarrassed at how I acted when we were together and breaking up. Especially yesterday. I think my embarrassment will keep me from calling you. I think this is actually a good thing. This may be a positive thing about shame.

I know that we are not a good fit for each other. Your scary idealism and judgement is not good for me.

I don't know if I'm okay being alone. That is a crazy statement. Being alone used to be my superpower.

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