money

It's really hard for me to spend money. And the thing is - I sort of have a lot of money and need to spend it. But I don't want to. It's weird. I should be grateful for having this non-problem. I guess the real problem is that my apartment is a bit messy. Not CRAZY messy, just a bit messy. And my clothes are a bit shabby. Again not CRAZY shabby, just a bit shabby. And I do think that when I get my shit together it will all get better. I don't know if I am wasting my life living in a messy apartment, wearing shabby clothes.